4/13/08
Pray for me and for all writers living or dead;
Because there are many whose works
Are in better taste than their lives; because there is no end
To the vanity of our calling: make intercession
For the treason of all clerks.
Because the darkness is never so distant,
And there is never much time for the arrogant
Spirit to flutter its wings,
Or the broken bone to rejoice, or the cruel to cry
For Him whose property is always to have mercy, the author
And giver of all good things.
-W.H. Auden, At the Grave of Henry James
4/11/08
Well he stormed with his feet
And he clapped with his hands,
He summoned all of his joy when he laughed
It suffered all of his joy when he cried.
Well in war he was a tiger
When it was over like a dove,
He summoned all of his strength in the climb
It suffered all of his strength in the fall.
He put his trust in a higher power
He held his power like a holy grail,
He summoned all of his faith in the lifting
It suffered all of his faith in the fail.
-M. Ward, Requiem
Lost and ruined by the fall,
If you tarry 'til you're better
You will never come at all.
-Joseph Hart
4/9/08
-C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
___________
The death close before me was terrible, but far more terrible than death was the dread of being misremembered after death.
___________
"Dear Joe, I hope you will have children to love, and that some little fellow will sit in this chimney corner of a winter night, who may remind you of another little fellow gone out of it for ever. And now, though I know you have already done it in your own kind hearts, pray tell me, both, that you forgive me! Pray let me hear you say the words, that I may carry the sound of them away with me, and then I shall be able to believe that you can trust me, and think better of me, in the time to come!"
-Great Expectations
4/8/08
So subdued I was by those tears, that when I was on the coach, and it was clear of the town, I deliberated with an aching heart whether I would not get down when we changed horses and walk back, and have another evening at home, and a better parting. We changed, and I had not made up my mind, and still reflected for my comfort that it would be quite practicable to get down and walk back, when we changed again.
It was now too late and too far to go back, and I went on. And the mists had all solemnly risen now, and the world lay spread before me.
Just as surely as God desires to lead us to a knowledge of genuine Christian fellowship, so surely must we be overwhelmed by a great disillusionment with others, with Christians in general, and, if we are fortunate, with ourselves.
By sheer grace, God will not permit us to live even for a brief period in a dream world. He does not abandon us to those rapturous experiences and lofty moods that come over us like a dream. God is not a God of the emotions but the God of truth. Only that fellowship which faces such disillusionment, with all its unhappy and ugly aspects, begins to be what it should be in God's sight, begins to grasp in faith the promise that is given to it.
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Life Together
4/7/08
4/6/08
4/3/08
is Thy love indeed
A weed, albeit an amaranthine weed,
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount?
-Francis Thompson, The Hound of Heaven
-Christian Wiman (144)
4/1/08
by Bright Eyes
(my favorite song, though I have yet to hear it)
There is a middle-aged woman dragging her feet.
She carries baskets of clothes to a laundromat.
While the Mexican children kick rocks into the street
and they laugh in a language I don't understand.
But I love them.
Why do I love them?
So the neighborhood is dimming as I smoke on the porch
and watch the people as they pass enclosed inside their cars.
And on their faces just anger or disappointment.
I start wishing there was something I could offer them.
A consolation, what could I offer them?
When they are sad in their suburbs, robots water the lawn
and everything they touch gets dusted spotless,
so they start to believe that they haven't touched anything at all
while the cars in the driveway only multiply.
They are lost in their houses.
I have heard them sing in the shower
and making speeches to their sister on the telephone.
Saying, "You come home.
Darling, you come here.
Don't stay so far away from me."
This weather has me wanting love more tangible,
something I can hold because it's getting cold.
So lets hold up our fists to the flame in the sky
to block out the light that is reaching for our eyes
because it would blind us.
It will blind us.
Now I have locked my actions in the grooves of routine.
So I may never be free of this apathy.
But I wait for a letter that is coming to me.
She sends me pictures of the ocean in an envelope.
So there still is hope.
Yes, I can be healed.
There is someone looking for what I concealed in my secret drawer,
in my pockets deep, you will find the reasons that I can't sleep
and you will still want me.
But will you still want me?
Well, I say come for the week. You can sleep in my bed.
And then pass through my life like a dream through my head.
It will be easy. I will make it easy.
But all I have for the moment is a song to pass the time.
A melody to keep me from worrying.
Oh, some simple progression to keep my fingers busy.
And some words that are sure to come back to me and they will be laughing.
My mediocrity. My mediocrity.
3/31/08
They have to take you in.'
'I should have called it
Something you somehow haven't to deserve.'
-Robert Frost, The Death of a Hired Man
3/30/08
-Stanley Hauerwas
3/29/08
I know I don't want it. I want magic!
Magic! Yes! That's what I want!
That's what I try to give to people.
I do mis-
Represent things.
I don't tell
The truth. But I tell
What ought to be the truth . . .
What it ought to be.
Yes, magic. Magic's what I try to give to people.
If that's a sin,
If that is such a sin
Then let me be damned for it!
Don't turn on that light.
It'll all look so ugly in that light.
Why not see by candlelight . . .
Or moonlight, or by starlight?
They are bright enough to see by . . .
Sometimes too bright.
Don't turn on that light.
-I Want Magic!
The first that I could recollect
Bereft I was - of what I knew not
Too young that any should suspect
A Mourner walked among the children
I notwithstanding went about
As one bemoaning a Dominion
Itself the only Prince cast out –
Elder, Today, a session wiser
And fainter, too, as Wiseness is --
I find myself still softly searching
For my Delinquent Palaces --
And a Suspicion, like a Finger
Touches my Forehead now and then
That I am looking oppositely
For the site of the Kingdom of Heaven –
-Emily Dickinson
3/28/08
-internet monk
3/27/08
Every Riven Thing
by Christian Wiman
God goes, belonging to every riven thing He's made
Sing his being simply by being
The thing it is:
Stone and tree and sky,
Man who sees and sings and wonders why
God goes. Belonging, to every riven thing He's made,
Means a storm of peace.
Think of the atoms inside the stone.
Think of the man who sits alone
Trying to will himself into the stillness where
God goes belonging. To every riven thing He's made
There is given one shade
Shaped exactly to the thing itself:
Under the tree a darker tree;
Under the man the only man to see
God goes belonging to every riven thing. He's made
The things that bring Him near,
Made the mind that makes Him go.
A part of what man knows,
Apart from what man knows,
God goes belonging to every riven thing He's made.
3/23/08
3/21/08
And if holding her means I have to bleed
Then I am a martyr, and love is to blame.
She is the healing, and I am the pain.
-Trading Yesterday
-William Deresiewicz
3/20/08
The orchards of our mothers,
And hearts that we broke long ago
Have long been breaking others;
Tears are round, the sea is deep:
Roll them overboard and sleep.
-W.H. Auden (yes, again)
-A Prayer for Owen Meany
3/19/08
-Christian Wiman, Gazing Into the Abyss
3/18/08
And pine for what is not-
Our sincerest laughter
With some pain is fraught-
Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought.
Yet if we could scorn
Hate and pride and fear;
If we were things born
Not to shed a tear,
I know not how thy joy we ever should come near.
-Shelley, from To a Sky-Lark
3/17/08
for the expertise
of his torturer and his chef.
---
Lonely he may be
but, each time he bolts his door
the last thing at night,
his heart rejoices: "No one
can interfere with me now."
-
He woke in the small hours,
dismayed by a wilderness
of hostile thoughts.
-
Thoughts of his own death,
like the distant roll
of thunder at a picnic.
-W.H. Auden
3/16/08
-Terry Bain

Letters For God.
The Israeli postal service sorts over 2 million pieces of mail daily, and inevitably some of those letters come addressed to God. Rather than consign the letters to bins of undeliverable mail, letters addressed to God are collected and deposited at the Western Wall a few times a year.
Postal authorities consider the letters private conversations with God and do not open them. Letters come from all corners of the globe,
3/15/08
Faith is precisely this paradox, that the single individual as the particular is higher than the universal and is justified over against the latter not as subordinate but superior to it, yet in such a way, mind you, that it is the single individual who, after having been subordinate to the universal as the particular, now through the universal becomes the single individual who as the particular is superior to it; [faith is this paradox] that the single individual as the particular stands in an absolute relation to the absolute.
-Kierkegaard as Johann de silencio
3/14/08
| 1. | collateral misinformation | |
| When someone alters a Wikipedia article to win a specific argument, anyone who reads the false article before the "error" is corrected suffers from collateral misinformation. I changed the scientific classification of red foxes last night in order to win an argument with Judy. I hope some stupid High School student didn't suffer from collateral misinformation. | ||
3/13/08
(from somewhere in the non-Israelite ancient Near East,
I'm confused by footnotes.)
The transgression I have committed I do not know;
The sin I have done I do not know;
The forbidden thing I have eaten I do not know;
The prohibited place on which I have set foot I do not know;
The god whom I know or do not know has oppressed me;I am troubled, I am overwhelmed, I cannot see.
Man is dumb; he knows nothing;
Mankind, everyone that exists-what does he know?
Whether he is committing sin or doing good, he does not even know.
3/12/08
-Dr. John H. Walton
3/11/08
prayer
by Aaron Belz
Shall I
compare
myself
to a dog?
If so,
it’s true—
sometimes
I paw my
master’s
leg. And
sometimes
he plays
with me.
3/10/08
In the ancient world something came into existence when it was separated out as a distinct entity, given a function, and given a name.
-Dr. John Walton, Ancient Near Eastern Thought
3/9/08
3/8/08

from the book of Jeremiah
Like a cage full of birds,
their houses are full of deceit;
therefore they have become great and rich;
they have grown fat and sleek.
They know no bounds in deeds of evil;
they judge not with justice
the cause of the fatherless, to make it prosper,
and they do not defend the rights of the needy.
Shall I not punish them for these things?
declares the Lord,
and shall I not avenge myself
on a nation such as this?
An appalling and horrible thing
has happened in the land:
the prophets prophesy falsely,
and the priests rule at their direction;
my people love to have it so,
but what will you do when the end comes?
saying, 'Peace, peace,'
when there is no peace.

The battle spread over the face of all the country, and the forest devoured more people that day than the sword.
-here.
-Herbert McCabe
(via I have no idea why I subscribe to this blog... it's ...boring)
3/6/08
- James Joyce
3/4/08
Letter of Recommendation for Rick Stoeckel, Who Was Homeschooled
By Rick Stoeckel
...When I asked Ricky's father for a comment to include in this recommendation, he stated, "Ricky's all right." If you knew Ricky's father, you would realize what a great accolade that is. I second that notion. For all his faults and imperfections and disappointments and failures, our Ricky is all right.
If you have any questions regarding Ricky's worthiness or character, please feel free to contact me. I am available anytime except Saturday mornings, when I go grocery shopping, and Monday nights, when Ricky's father and I hold our own PTA meetings: just the two of us. Thank you.
Sincerely,
Rick's Mom
3/3/08
He needs a brother as a bearer and proclaimer of the divine word of salvation. He needs his brother solely because of Jesus Christ. The Christ in his own heart is weaker than the Christ in the word of his brother; his own heart is uncertain; his brother’s is sure.
2/28/08
-Lyndon B. Johnson
2/27/08
| KNOW then thyself, presume not God to scan, | |
| The proper study of mankind is man. | |
| Placed on this isthmus of a middle state, | |
| A being darkly wise, and rudely great: | |
| With too much knowledge for the sceptic side, | 5 |
| With too much weakness for the Stoic’s pride, | |
| He hangs between; in doubt to act, or rest; | |
| In doubt to deem himself a God, or beast; | |
| In doubt his mind or body to prefer; | |
| Born but to die, and reasoning but to err; | 10 |
| Alike in ignorance, his reason such, | |
| Whether he thinks too little or too much: | |
| Chaos of thought and passion, all confus’d; | |
| Still by himself abused or disabused; | |
| Created half to rise, and half to fall; | 15 |
| Great lord of all things, yet a prey to all; | |
| Sole judge of truth, in endless error hurled: | |
| The glory, jest, and riddle of the world! -Alexander Pope (I've never understood humanism better than after reading this) |
2/26/08
-David Mamet
2/25/08
2/24/08
2/23/08
The Temptation of Adam
by Josh Ritter
...I never had to learn to love her like I learned to love the Bomb,
she just came along and started to ignore me...
We could hold each other close and stay up every night
looking up into the dark like it's the night sky.
Pretend this giant missile is an old oak tree instead
and carve our name in hearts into the warhead.
Oh Marie there's something tells me things just won't work out above,
that our love would live a half-life on the surface.
So at night while you are sleeping
I hold you closer just because
as our time grows short I get a little nervous.
I think about the Big One, W.W.I.I.I.
Would we ever really care the world had ended?
You could hold me here forever like you're holding me tonight
I think about that great big button and I'm tempted.
2/22/08
2/20/08
2/19/08
by Jack Gilbert
For eleven years I have regretted it,
regretted that I did not do what
I wanted to do as I sat there those
four hours watching her die. I wanted
to crawl in among the machinery
and hold her in my arms, knowing
the elementary, leftover bit of her
mind would dimly recognize it was me
carrying her to where she was going.
2/18/08
2/14/08
Batter my heart, three-personed God; for youAs yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend;
That I may rise and stand, o’erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurped town, to another due,
Labor to admit you, but O, to no end;
Reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
but is captived, and proves weak or untrue.
yet dearly I love you, and would be loved fain,
But am betrothed unto your enemy.
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again;
Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor even chaste, except you ravish me.
-John Donne, Holy Sonnet XIV
2/11/08

Unholy we sang this morning, and prayed
as if we were not broken, crooked
the Christ-figure hung, splayed
on bloodied beams above us;
devious God, dweller in shadows,
mercy on us;
immortal, cross-shattered Christ—
your gentling grace down upon us.
-"Mercy" from Manhandling the Deity, by John F. Deane
2/10/08
a nation of warriors and fanatics, marching forward in perfect unity, all thinking the same thoughts and shouting the same slogans, perpetually working, fighting, triumphing, persecuting- three hundred million people all with the same face.
-George Orwell, 1984
Photo - BenGood
2/9/08
Eden, the original sacred space, is restored in us as God's presence has taken up his dwelling in his people... Keep the space pure. (123)
-Old Testament Today
2/6/08
by Billy Collins
The whole idea of it makes me feel
like I'm coming down with something,
something worse than any stomach ache
or the headaches I get from reading in bad light--
a kind of measles of the spirit,
a mumps of the psyche,
a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.
You tell me it is too early to be looking back,
but that is because you have forgotten
the perfect simplicity of being one
and the beautiful complexity introduced by two.
But I can lie on my bed and remember every digit.
At four I was an Arabian wizard.
I could make myself invisible
by drinking a glass of milk a certain way.
At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.
But now I am mostly at the window
watching the late afternoon light.
Back then it never fell so solemnly
against the side of my tree house,
and my bicycle never leaned against the garage
as it does today,
all the dark blue speed drained out of it.
This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,
as I walk through the universe in my sneakers.
It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends,
time to turn the first big number.
It seems only yesterday I used to believe
there was nothing under my skin but light.
If you cut me I could shine.
But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life,
I skin my knees. I bleed.
2/5/08
-Internet Monk
2/4/08
"For my own part I tend to find the doctrinal books often more helpful in devotion than the devotional books, and I rather suspect that the same experience may await many others. I believe that many who find that "nothing happens" when they sit down, or kneel down, to a book of devotion, would find that the heart sings unbidden while they are working their way through a tough bit of theology with a pipe in their teeth and a pencil in their hand."-C.S. Lewis
"Meanwhile, where is God?...But go to Him when your need is desperate, when all other help is vain, and what do you find? A door slammed in your face, and a sound of bolting and double bolting on the inside. After that, silence. You may as well turn away. The longer you wait, the more emphatic the silence will become. There are no lights in the windows. It might be an empty house. Was it ever inhabited? It seemed so once. And that seeming was as strong as this. What can this mean? Why is He so present a commander in our time of prosperity and so very absent a help in time of trouble?"
-Lewis again, A Grief Observed
2/2/08
-W. H. Auden
...it is no longer feasible for guardians of religious traditions to protect their young from exposure to the kinds of facts (and, yes, of course, misinformation and junk of every genre) that gently, irresistibly undermine the mindsets requisite for religious fanaticism and intolerance. The religious fervor of today is a last, desperate attempt by our generation to block the eyes and ears of the coming generations, and it isn’t working."
-Daniel C. Dennett















